Crap, I think I left the gas on!

I saw this flick today in a thankfully uncrowded theater. It was a good flick, but it felt a lot like the last one in terms of tone and leaving me way too stimulated to be satisfied by it.

Also I don't know if this commercial plays in all theaters across the board, but there was one about encouraging girls to stay in sports. I have mixed feelings on this. On the one hand I think encouraging girls to compete in sports is a healthy thing to do and it's something that a lot of girls have interest in even when they lack support for it. On the other hand I really have to roll my eyes at this ads assumption that the only thing girls do if they're not participating in sports is being obsessed with fashion. Yes it's true that girls are constantly being told that they're ugly by the beauty industry and that creates a whole array of problems. However not all girls who aren't athletic wear high heels and make up. If a girl isn't on a sports team she might be on a debate team, science team, doing 4H, making art, doing something that doesn't revolve around her appearance. I'd also like to point out that girls who do participate in sports might also enjoy playing with make up or doing their hair when they're not practicing or participating in competitions.

And that was my day at the movies. I'm going to lay down for a minute now...

Today has been a shit ass day. Not just a shit day. A shit ass day.

I have to redo a project that has more to do with physics than with art and my teacher made me see a counselor because I had an emotional breakdown in class. I felt better after seeing the counselor that was in today, but I still have to question the ethics of this. Then again if I can have a teacher that tried to make it an assignment for people to go get blood work I should probably just count my blessings.

God, I don't know why I'm so depressed and angry. Well, I guess I kinda know. The problem is I can't fucking fix it cuz it's all external.

This year has been a fucking waste of time for me. This was supposed to be the year I actually got started doing what I fucking came here to do. I hate this school, I hate this art department, and I fucking hate this class especially. If next year doesn't go well then goddess help I won't know what to do with myself.

I spend a lot of time on tumblr. As a visual person I enjoy the format of images being constantly streamed to me.

However there are also text based posts that float around and they're usually pretty short. Sometimes I sigh heavily at them though.

Today I saw one that was very eloquently written about gay characters in mainstream media. It was of course about how fandom fetishizes these white and male characters and about how that is bad. It ended with a little rant about how shipping should be about chemistry and not about how attractive the couple is.

...-sigh- Apparently the fact that lesbianism has for years been (and still is) treated as an offshoot of heterosexuality and being for the male gaze just doesn't register with people.

I woke this morning and realized that my i.d., my keycard, and my hard keys are all missing. Shit. I tore the room apart trying to find them, but alas.

It's cool though. I did cave and decide to just replace my keys and i.d. (which I have to do tomorrow grr), even though that will cost me twenty bucks.

Also, my friend who lives downstairs roommate just moved out. So that means I can move in with her. We got the paperwork filled out, but we can't start moving me for two weeks since we can change rooms when classes start. Ah well.

So yeah, Gryphon. You helping me move all my stuff to my room? It's gonna be undone in about two weeks time. Ahhhh, well.

My long and involved comic project...yes...

( Here's part 10 of the madness. Tell me what you think. )

There's been a lot of discussion of why femslash isn't as popular as slash. It seems to baffle some folk that slash can be so popular in the realms of fandom. What especially confuses them is how fangirls who claim to be more interested in the ladies than the dudes could possibly prefer male/male slash as opposed to female/female femslash (kept in their own very seperate categories).

( Part of the reason is bad writing. )

Finally got this done!

( Here we go )

AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH!

I found out this morning that I need a 3.0 GPA to get Neighboring State Tuition. I don't have that (though my GPA isn't bad). Thankfully I can appeal for it and the lady I talked to who's going to help me seemed nice.

We got soda and tacos today. So that was nice. Also my laptop returned at last!

Unfortunately I need a recovery disk to make it work. One that I had to order and pay for.

Then I watched Dragon Age romance scenes and ate tacos to make myself feel better.

AND THEN MY DAD CALLED. Yeah, remember this from when I graduated highschool? Yeah, two years of college later he called. I don't know why. I'm sure I'll find out later.

I...don't even wanna deal really. On the one hand good stuff has happened today. On the other hand I have just wanted to destroy a room and pull all my hair out. I won't do these things, but I want to. I wish I just wasn't bothered by some things like people tell me I shouldn't be, but I am.

If all else fails I guess I'll go backpack through California.

Yes, I am that much of a wimp that I can't pick up my mean cat.

( Less pathetic things are under this cut )